it's funny how people think of me as inept and too fluid that i don't have a firm grasp on reality, and having any solid plan to direct my life to. the truth is, i hide many things from many people, and contrary to their beliefs, i have laid plans and backup plans on the directions i am heading towards in life, but i simply don't want to share it. when i do share it, i lied. this is further worsened when i'm struggling to fabricate a story as to why i would head that direction, since my feeble attempt at diverting attention makes me appear more incompetent and scatter-brained.

it's a vicious circle, people. that's my life in a nutshell. full of secrecies, hidden implications, whispered intentions and veiled truths.